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Dear Melvyn Caryl:

I met my twin almost eight years ago. I was at a club. It was the end of the night. A gentleman approached me to dance, and being the shy person I was, I initially said no. Something inside of me literally screamed you have to! I grabbed his hand and followed him to the dance floor.

Immediately there was this energy surrounding us. It was the most amazing thing I have ever felt in my life. I found out that he was from another state, and he was leaving the following morning. I told myself to enjoy whatever small time we had to ourselves. We could not let each other go, it was so magnetic. I protected my heart by not letting myself get attached, and after the dance walked out with my friends.

Shortly thereafter as I was opening the car door, I heard my name being called frantically. He was running towards me breathless. He was not ready to let me go just yet. My friend and I drove to where he was staying, all the while I felt like a child in a candy store.

We talked for hours outside of his hotel, and could not get over this feeling, and the similarities between us. I looked at his ID and saw he was in the military. I begrudgingly left him because I had work in a couple hours. We could not let each other go, and when we finally did, he stood outside with this sad look on his face watching until the car was out of his sight. I had this feeling we would not see each other for awhile nagging at me, but I refused to acknowledge it.

When I arrived home he was already on the phone with my roommate. We talked for many more hours, and I was convinced I had found the man I was to marry. We both felt this energy, and could not get over how we knew each other inside and out already. He prepared me for a few things in regards to his job, and asked me if I could handle being involved with someone in this position. I can, I said I was sure. He promised the first thing he would do when he got home was consult a map and figure out how to get back to me.

As you may be able to guess, I never heard from him again. A war broke out around this time, and I surmised that he went. I waited for a year or more convinced that he would come back to me. I was so sure I kept a journal to share my days with him when he returned. I finally gave up that hope, and sunk into sadness.

In the years since, I have always had the feeling that we were being held apart, and I can see now why this is. As I said before I looked at his ID, saw his full name, and even spoke it the next morning. The day after that the name was taken from my memory. All I have to this day is the first and middle name. Now I have these urges, many years later, that he is searching for me and has left something for me to find him. It drives me insane at times this feeling to need to search, and other days it doesn’t come to me at all.

It has now been ten years but my heart and the story remains the same. What I can't get over is he was determined to talk to me, telling me he would call every number in the book until he found me because he thought I gave him the wrong phone number. If he was that determined and wouldn't let me go, why didn't I hear back from him? It doesn’t make sense. He literally would not let me go hugging me through the car window as I was ready to drive off. It doesn't add up and to me, the puzzle pieces don’t fit.

Hope you can make some sense of this.

Love, N.

Dear N:

I get a lot of people who email me with Twin Soul stories and their struggles, and I have developed an intuitive sense about these connections. But that is all it is--a sense, a feeling based somewhat on reoccurring elements that I run across in other stories.

Yours has a familiar ring. I see two possibilities, but one that I feel is most probable. And I think you may know this deep inside, but are blocking it. For you ask the most critical questions yourself toward the end of your story...

<<What I can't get over is he was determined to talk to me telling me he would call every number in the book until he found me cause he thought I gave him the wrong on phone number. If he was that determined and wouldn't let me go why didn't I hear back from him? it doesn’t make sense.>>

I can think of only one reason--that he is not on this side. I know this is hard, but in some way I believe he is trying to tell you this--so that you will feel his closeness, for I believe the connection is even stronger when a twin has touched on this side and then crosses over--you know each other from both dimensions in this incarnation.

Love, I could be wrong. But would it not be better to know so that with his help and encouragement you can move on to what you planned together? I would like to suggest that you try to connect with him as a spirit being instead of a physical being and see if you can make that contact--astral visit, dreams--pay attention. If you have these, let me know. My hunch is that you are intuitive, and do know how to connect with your Composite Soul. The beauty is, he is part of that Composite Soul. He and all his incarnational selves share your Composite Soul (your higher self).

There is a beauty in this. Nothing happens by accident. What a gift you have given each other in those few moments when you were able to touch. If I am right, all those reoccurring numbers you are seeing are from him to make you take notice. He is the other half of you, and will help you with this. For if I am right, he was never lost to you. He has always been by your side.

Instead of focusing on the sorrow that you did not have more time together, perhaps you can reach within to that place where you can connect and work together between dimensions.

I know that when my twin crosses that we will be closer than we are now.

N, please remember that this is what I see. This does not mean this is what is. The other possibility is that if he is still here, it is not time for you to be together. Most true Twin Soul reunions do not happen until one nears their 60's--past the child bearing years and when the two can devote their energies to service--the true purpose of Twin Soul reunion.

In your case, I do not 'feel' this is the greater of the two possibilities.

Please know that I do not say these things to hurt you, but I know if this rings true in your heart I will have caused tears. I send you my love and lots of hugs.. ((((Hugs))))

Always with love,
Caryl

Caryl,

I must say this news hurt but it is necessary. First of all my first impression of course was to deny it. To say it isn't true--that we have more time together on this earth, until I got to one of your last sentences. You said if this is true it will cause tears. I was bawling before that sentence. I think deep inside I do know, but I don’t want it to be true because it seems so cruel that I would choose such a thing. It felt as if God had reached down from heaven and said here you go, here is everything you have ever dreamed of, now enjoy your life.

Things have happened that I want to explain to you. A year or so ago I was driving home late at night alone. A song came on, and in the song it said, “A breath away’s not far from where you are. “ I felt someone touch my face so tenderly and something move inside of me. Then at that time I felt him. I laid myself down that night feeling someone cuddling with me. I knew it was him and at that moment I knew he was gone. Somewhere along the way I came to deny it not being able to live with that reality. I couldn't stand not thinking I would never touch him again. I began to believe my feeling were right that first night. I felt we would see each other again in this life but it would be a very long time.

In 1999 I was driving home from a friend’s house with my family, and I felt him cry out to me. I felt a sense of urgency like I needed to get to him, that he was hurt and he needed me, and I nearly jumped out of my skin wanting to be wherever he was. This was before I was aware of my gifts of intuitive empathy. This must be when he passed.

Thank you for making me see this, although I am not going to be dishonest and say it isn't hard. I won’t say that I can walk away happily with this knowledge right now. Somewhere inside of me I do know this, but I don’t want it to be true. I have a hard time knowing I can’t touch him--not like on earth.

(continued the next day)

You are a complete angel. I am struggling with this, still not wanting to let go. As you suggested, I reached out to my twin. I said, “I am not ready to let you go. I am not ready to believe that we can’t be together here. “

The response came, “It’s time to let go of this idea you have to not let go of me. I am a part of you therefore wherever you are, there I am.” He said, “It’s necessary at this time to let go, not only because you are hurting yourself, but because someone else is coming. Your mind and your heart is so preoccupied with seeing no one else but me, you will totally miss this opportunity.”

With you Caryl, I feel something special, a comfortable knowing and a trust. I know instinctually that you would never lead me astray. I know that what you speak is truth and I feel the love that accompanies everything you say. I feel as if you are reaching inside of me and using your knowing of me to help me face what I never would have without you. When you say things you give me confirmation before I can ask, kindly pointing things out that make sense to me so that I do not have to question. I feel so comfortable with you as though you are a dear dear friend whom I have known forever and that nothing is too secret to speak and that what I say is not judged but taken within and responded to with understanding and love. Such a thing is far greater than any treasure that can be found the world over.

Thank you for doing something I know was hard to do… to tell me the truth. Many others have told me this as well. By not wanting to see was only hurting me in the long run. I will let you know if anymore experiences happen now that I am moving towards acceptance.

Love you , N

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